I’m still around!!

I know, I know…I haven’t been online in ages!  So much going on and we’re moving soon (yeah!) to another village, add to that the wedding dress that I have to finish in the next week, summer classes and preparations for my mum’s visit….  I stopped ‘diting’ round abvout the same time I stopped blogging last month- but have been back on track for 3 days now and cycling 20 minutes every morning first thing.  I am doing this!

Brighter

Hello world.  Feeling a little brighter- not that much, but brighter is brighter. I seem to have GAINED 2 kgs in 1 week.  OMG.  Oh well, today’s another day and so far I’ve been really good:

BREAKFAST: cereal

LUNCH: 2 boiled eggs + fat free yogurt

SNACK: apple

DINNER: is going to be grilled salmon and stirfried rice

Got to start a PROPER exercise routine and not one lined with excuses!

Down (me and unfortunately NOT the scale’s reading)

I’ve been really down the past week- emotionally (heavy DH probs) AND physically (bad cold, sinuses and generally feeling like crap)  Even our dog is sick – 2 trips to the vet in the past 2 days.  I feel horrible. I haven’t done any exercise the whole week, which in turn has made me fel even worse about myself and life in general.  I’ve been eating like there’s no tomorrow (stress has a nasty habit of doing that to me)  I keep thinking I’ve got only SEVEN weeks till my mum arrives (haven’t seen her in TWO years) and I REALLY want to lose some weight before she gets here for various reasons.  PRESSURE + STRESS = too many trips to the fridge.  I need some help here – I’m losing focus and getting DEPRESSED…..

Back to work and wishing I’d get with the program!

I’m back at ‘work’.  I work from home teaching English, my students come to me, so it’s pretty cool- although the disadvantage is that the flat has to be SUPER clean every day.  That and the fact that the fridge is only 20 steps away….. Today’s a busy day – I taught one class this morning and then I have 4 classes from 1-30 to 9pm with 15 minute breaks in between classes.  The past 2 days have been BAD foodwise.  TOM arrived yesterday and I didn’t do any exercise, just ate and ate.  Really- I couldn’t stop myself- I was ravenous all day!  I must have had 2500 calories easily.  Tuesday evening we went to visit the in-laws and although I didn’t overeat per se, I had ‘oily’ food I wouldn’t normally eat at home.  And cava (champagne) of course.  We are Catalans after all. (well I’m a South African/Catalan)  Cava is a way of life.  Way over cals then too.  Sooooo…. this morning I did a truly stupid thing. I knew it was stupid before I even did it, but heh- I was wondering just how much more I’d weigh on the second day of TOM. Um…. 3kgs more than 3 days ago?  OMG.  I hope that’s water retention!!!  Right. Who am I kidding?  I’ve put on.  I need to get a grip and get with the damn program again.  WHY, WHY, WHY do I self-sabotage myself so????

Another annoying headache

I woke up this morning with a NASTY headache- sinusitus/neck.  It’s now 5pm- a long shower, 2mg of painkillers, aroma steam and a VERY long siesta later - it’s eased somewhat but I’ve still got it. Arrggghhh – I hate these headaches- it’s an entire day wasted- I’ve literally done NOTHING.  Not a stitch, the house is a mess- the kitchen looks like something exploded in there and I don’t have the energy to hang out the washing (that’s probably going all miff in the machine by now).  Sigh…..I hopped on the scale this morning and….I’m UP.  Can’t say I’m surprised- I’ve been slacking a little- counting cals a little too ‘loosely’.  I need to pull finger here and NOW!  So, I’m going to get OFF the computer – go hang out the washing, clean the kitchen, tidy the house and sit down to do some work.

Cornbraids & Chocolate

I had some cornbraids put in today at the beach by a lovely Senegalian (is that the word?) woman.  I had to pull out the elastics after a few hours as it felt like I’d had a serious facelift.  Ha ha.  They look pretty cool and I’m feeling really African again.  Feeling premenstrual – blew 500 cals on dark chocolate  this afternoon- SO worth it!  mmmm…..

Internet addiction

Good morning world!  Less than a week of hols left for me and (needless to say) I haven’t finished everything I needed to get done.  Still have piles of beading and a looming deadline….  I blame my procrastination on…THE INTERNET.  I log on innocently enough each morning just wanting to check emails, ebay, blog a little, etc and end up spending HOURS and HOURS in front of my laptop. Doing what?  Not all that sure but I do know one thing- I’m addicted.  It’s as simple as that.  I’ve substituted all my vices with technology.  At least I’ve stopped playing so much wordscraper- that was chewing away half the day!  So, now it’s 10am, I’ve checked my emails, visited ebay and am now blogging and then I’m going to SWITCH OFF the laptop, pack it away and bead for the rest of the day. 6 HOURS!!!   I’m going out for dinner tonight with a friend to a little beach bar for chicken, which should be fun.  Ah- I haven’t managed to add all those swimming cossie pics, so my photo page is now visible again.  Also started a new ‘reasons’ page – will add to that as and when.  Have a great day everyone!

My website

www.amorillum.com

Designing

Okay- sorted out!  We took the pile of paperwork to the police and after an intensive study were assured we can pick up the letter on the 20th July.  Whew!  What a relief that is.  Now I can focus on other things like finishing off this wedding dress and designing a new range of clothing.  My friend owns a shop and wants to start a clothing line- so we’ve gone into ‘business’ together and I’m working on the designs.  Just spend the better part of the morning on ebay – fabric heaven for us mere mortals that live in Spain and have very little selection, well – there’s a selection but the prices are astronomical!!!  I’ve chosen some nice pieces in gorgeous colours and funky 70s prints.  Got to make up the samples then, we’ll give them a test run- well she will- she’s tiny and I DON’T quite see myself sporting the things I’m designing (yet)  Quite exciting!  Now I’m off for a siesta and then this afternoon I have to carry on with the beading – which is starting to look lovely!

Hope you’re all having a FABULOUS day- thanks for all the support ladies- it wouldn’t be the same without you all. ((hugs))

STRESSED

I’m totally STRESSED today.  First off, I got on the scale this morning (weigh-day) and guess what- I’ve lost 0,2kg this week. WTF???  Two days ago I was down 1,5kg and today 0,2?  Bastard!  Secondly tried to phone the notary to make an appointment to go get the ‘letter of invitation’ for my mom and aunt’s visit in September that they need to apply for their Schengen visa, only to be told the police now do it.  Needless to say the police need everything except our bloody DNA.  Mom and aunt’s birth certificates-which are NOT unabridged and mom doesn’t have ID’s prior to 2nd marriage and everything’s looking way too complicated.  Besides the fact we have to fork out 110€ for a simple piece of paper.  Arrgghh- just spoke to mom (nearly in tears) and I’m trying to stay CALM, even though I’m stressing like mad- ‘cos they’ve both bought and paid for their tickets and the unabridged brith certificates (if they need them) take more than 2 months to issue- and we simply won’t have the TIME.  Arrggghhhh.  WHY are South Africans who simply want to visit family here treated like possible-criminals?  Sigh.  Hopefully we can get all our documents together and go tomorrow to the Police station and sort this little matter out, so everyone can stop worrying.